Organized Confusion

I haven’t really known what to write about for a while. Life has felt really chaotic and also very dull. S decided to leave his band and put the rent money from their space to savings, he wants to focus harder on getting pregnant. I was a little surprised, but I think his brother sending an oddly touching message pushed it forward for him.

S decided to leave his band and put the rent money from their space to savings, he wants to focus harder on getting pregnant. I was a little surprised, but I think his brother sending an oddly touching message pushed it forward for him.

I started my new job after being laid off. It has been pretty good, its a very different atmosphere and different type of projects. I like it for the most part. There have been a few things that have annoyed me. Like sometimes the bit times seem way too tight for what the shot needs. Or an interaction will be very frustrating, but those are just things that will be pretty normal for working anywhere. I like that there is less overtime, it feels like I could balance my work/family life there for when I have a kid. Which has been weighing on me a lot lately. How will I make it work? If I got to any other studio I will be working tons of hours and wouldn’t be able to be home for my kid. But the place I am at now we get to have more of a flexible schedule, and there are remote workers, so if I needed to I could at least try and do that.

The other thing that has been weighing on my mind with this kid thing is thinking of housing. I would love to buy a place, but we would need to get a better down payment going than what we currently could do. The other option is moving farther out of the city and get a 2 bedroom place. That would probably run us about $2000 a month. That option kind of fucks over all my friends that I live with. I want to stay where I am. But I don’t want T to have to deal with a screaming baby next to his room all the time, or walking out of his room to my boob being flopped out feeding or milking myself. But, SK is probably moving out (which I am sad about because I love having her in the house. She’s awesome to live with. But she gets to go do something she wants really bad so understandably she has to do that.), with her not being there, there would technically be an empty room upstairs. So if T moved to that room and we paid a bit more to have the entire basement, then it would solve a lot of those problems. But would anyone else want to do that. I know D&K have a lot of stuff in that rooms closet and want to put their computers there. So they might not want to do that. I doubt T and C would care that much, they mostly stay in their rooms. But I don’t want to inconvenience everyone else with this issue, especially right now, while we aren’t even pregnant. But I want to get a plan for that stuff going because part of me feels like I have been stopping this from happening because I am stressed out about these things. I don’t even know how I would bring this stuff up with any one.

So many things to think about.